While I’m angry and full of grief, I have also felt a shift in my consciousness and even body. Your tarot reading resonates with me: I am utterly resolved to find like minded folks, nurture relationships, and plot how to resist fascism. I even reached out to a neighbor I had yet to meet, letting her know I saw her hope for a better future and was there because it is hard to know who is safe in this aftermath.
I felt the same shift. On monday, the day before the election, I googled "leftist groups near me." It's almost hilarious how easy it was. I feel like I've been on this spiritual journey, lighting candles and writing 2000 words of poetry, trying to find my people. Finally i just googled them. I reached out to an anti-capitalist mutual aid group that same day and my body felt an immediate sigh of relief. I can almost feel it crawling over my skin, this yearning to be in an actual room with actual people laboring toward a world I want to live in. I've carried that relief through election week. Even though I wake up at night feeling like I'm on a raft in the middle of an endless sea, I feel clear eyed in the steps i need to take, and like I belong to the world in exactly the way I need. I feel so much more grounded and wordless, and at the same time so much more afraid, than i did in 2016.
Yes!! Love that (thanks, internet!)! These resources have been there all along and now we’re encouraged to really lean into finding and connecting them. Also, you said all of that so beautifully. A raft in the middle of an endless sea…but also clear eyed in what comes next. Thank you thank you 🙏
I feel your anguish. Do you think it’s doubly hard if you’ve left behind the pro-life, evangelical crowd? I feel extra betrayed by people who were supposed to be safe but who instead fed me lie after lie after lie.
What I’ve personally noticed (and this is because pretty much the only people actively in my life have taken a similar journey as me) is that the alarm feels much more real and visceral because having been raised in that tradition I know just how sincerely they intend to take away my rights. There’s no sugar coating it or minimizing the damage evangelicals can do.
I think if I was still more emotionally connected to them, I’d feel betrayed. You?
It feels so devastating and I don't know how to start processing it. Maybe/probably the grief needs to come first. It just feels like such a huge loss that we will be experiencing for years (and I am Canadian, live in Canada, so I can't imagine what it feels like to live in the US now).
Thanks for the empathy from Canada! I’ve been carrying the grief and fear a lot this week and know I’m not ready to move into problem solving mode or anything. Just feeling it all, probably in ways I wasn’t healthy enough to do back in 2016!
Thanks for sharing this Christine. I've been bouncing between devastated, numb, and holding myself together enough to do the bare minimum to keep practical needs of life met. It's really interesting to hear that you pulled the Empress, who is all of a sudden stalking me (along with a long-term stalking from the Queen of Pentacles, whom I've met 15 times in 2024 during my daily pulls). My most recent encounter with the Empress was the result of a "Which Major Arcana Card Are You?" quiz. Me? The Empress? And yet...I'm slowly coming to the realization that I have changed significantly as a person over the past two years. I'm not sure if this person is new, or if I'm simply stepping back into who I really am vs. who those around me defined me to be. My chart's nodal axis is 1st/7th house, and today I read this sentence that hit me hard: "You're learning how to define yourself by your own desires and identity rather than by the needs and desires of those you love."
Wow! 15 queen of pentacles pulls! Good thing you’re tracking it 😉 I love the way growth is showing up in such profound ways, evidenced/mediated by what you’re learning through tarot. There is some kind of real shift happening for many people here. Even while we endure devastation and fear about our outside world.
While I’m angry and full of grief, I have also felt a shift in my consciousness and even body. Your tarot reading resonates with me: I am utterly resolved to find like minded folks, nurture relationships, and plot how to resist fascism. I even reached out to a neighbor I had yet to meet, letting her know I saw her hope for a better future and was there because it is hard to know who is safe in this aftermath.
Yes! I think the shift in consciousness must be occurring for many of us simultaneously. It makes me so curious for what comes next!
I felt the same shift. On monday, the day before the election, I googled "leftist groups near me." It's almost hilarious how easy it was. I feel like I've been on this spiritual journey, lighting candles and writing 2000 words of poetry, trying to find my people. Finally i just googled them. I reached out to an anti-capitalist mutual aid group that same day and my body felt an immediate sigh of relief. I can almost feel it crawling over my skin, this yearning to be in an actual room with actual people laboring toward a world I want to live in. I've carried that relief through election week. Even though I wake up at night feeling like I'm on a raft in the middle of an endless sea, I feel clear eyed in the steps i need to take, and like I belong to the world in exactly the way I need. I feel so much more grounded and wordless, and at the same time so much more afraid, than i did in 2016.
Yes!! Love that (thanks, internet!)! These resources have been there all along and now we’re encouraged to really lean into finding and connecting them. Also, you said all of that so beautifully. A raft in the middle of an endless sea…but also clear eyed in what comes next. Thank you thank you 🙏
I feel your anguish. Do you think it’s doubly hard if you’ve left behind the pro-life, evangelical crowd? I feel extra betrayed by people who were supposed to be safe but who instead fed me lie after lie after lie.
What I’ve personally noticed (and this is because pretty much the only people actively in my life have taken a similar journey as me) is that the alarm feels much more real and visceral because having been raised in that tradition I know just how sincerely they intend to take away my rights. There’s no sugar coating it or minimizing the damage evangelicals can do.
I think if I was still more emotionally connected to them, I’d feel betrayed. You?
They are the majority that elected him.
It feels so devastating and I don't know how to start processing it. Maybe/probably the grief needs to come first. It just feels like such a huge loss that we will be experiencing for years (and I am Canadian, live in Canada, so I can't imagine what it feels like to live in the US now).
Thanks for the empathy from Canada! I’ve been carrying the grief and fear a lot this week and know I’m not ready to move into problem solving mode or anything. Just feeling it all, probably in ways I wasn’t healthy enough to do back in 2016!
Thanks for sharing this Christine. I've been bouncing between devastated, numb, and holding myself together enough to do the bare minimum to keep practical needs of life met. It's really interesting to hear that you pulled the Empress, who is all of a sudden stalking me (along with a long-term stalking from the Queen of Pentacles, whom I've met 15 times in 2024 during my daily pulls). My most recent encounter with the Empress was the result of a "Which Major Arcana Card Are You?" quiz. Me? The Empress? And yet...I'm slowly coming to the realization that I have changed significantly as a person over the past two years. I'm not sure if this person is new, or if I'm simply stepping back into who I really am vs. who those around me defined me to be. My chart's nodal axis is 1st/7th house, and today I read this sentence that hit me hard: "You're learning how to define yourself by your own desires and identity rather than by the needs and desires of those you love."
Wow! 15 queen of pentacles pulls! Good thing you’re tracking it 😉 I love the way growth is showing up in such profound ways, evidenced/mediated by what you’re learning through tarot. There is some kind of real shift happening for many people here. Even while we endure devastation and fear about our outside world.
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